So, it's official..I'm ready to loose the last 15 lbs. that have haunted me the past 7 years. Well, really just the past 3 years. In total I wanted to loose..wait, I'm getting my calculator out- 35 lbs. That's how much I had left over from baby Lara in 2002. I lost 25 of those pounds before I went to Paris in 2006.
That was an awesome motivator by the way- I knew I was going to be looking at those pictures forever and I knew I didn't want to look the way I did. When Emily called me and told me that the trip was on and to go get my passport....I did...and came home from the post office and got on the treadmill. It was so gratifying. Just before the trip I went to buy some new clothes. I was looking through the racks with my girls when a saleswoman, who was rushing past and seemed slightly annoyed, looked me up and down and said, "Ma'am! You're in the wrong department. You need to shop over there." And thrust her finger toward the other side of the store demanding my obedience. Now, for those of you who know me well, this type of communication does NOT work well with me. Just as something terribly rude was about to spill forth from my lips- I realized- she was pointing me out of the 'plus-size woman' side to the 'misses' side of the store. All that came out of my mouth was an unbelievable, "Really? Thank you!". The clerk's back was already facing me and I couldn't believe I'd done it. Me. The girl who hides candy bars in her home. Who's favorite past-time is not rock climbing or hiking..it's watching movies or reading a book. I HATE to exercise....I've never felt the high that people are always talking about. I could sleep 12 hours a day if someone let me. Regardless, I went and got my pre-pregnancy size capris off the rack and headed to the fitting room. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I started crying in Old Navy. My girls were staring at me like I was nuts. Tears and smiles....I couldn't have been more proud of myself.
So, now I'm here again. Ready to conquer my insecurities about food, happiness, loneliness and self-doubt. I've put back on about- wait, calculator again, 7 of those 25 lbs. and I'm aiming to take off 17.
It's so hard to plan meals for your family and feed picking children (and a picky husband) when you're trying to loose weight. I feel guilty for taking time to myself and insisting on being left alone so I can work out. I stay at home full time- should my house be spotless before I workout? Should all the laundry be done? These are the things that go through my head and sometimes keep me off my weight-loss track. Did I mention that I homeschool all 3 of my kids and my husband travels out of state every other week?
How do you carve out time for yourself? How do you keep motivated when after two weeks you don't see any more weight loss? What stops you from meeting your goal? I'm going to log in this workout journal once a week. Good luck to me.
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Good luck! Someone I work with has lost 25 lbs in 3 months...her motivation is going to Costa Rica next month. Maybe we just all need to plan a vacation.
Great plan, you sound very motivated. Can you motivate me to eat healthier? I always remember with exercise that some is better than none. Good luck!
How exciting!! I, too, have decided to jump on the exercise band wagon. Since I know you're a YMCA member, why not check out some group classes that they offer? I seem to work harder when others are around vs when I try and do it on my own. I have also started the Fitlinxx program there where it will log in your activity, so you can view your progress. Did I mention: free childcare for family memberships!! I hope to see you up there! Maybe we can figure out a class we can both make it to! Good luck and I'm sure you will do great!
if anyone can do it, you can Ginny! here's some things that help me - writing goals down make us 80-90% (supposedly) more likely to keep them, so post your weekly exercise goals somewhere BIG SO YOU CAN'T MISS SEEING IT! also, I have to do it in the morning, I get too tired at night. So, whether the house is a mess or not, don't feel guilty to take 2-3 mornings/week to keep yourself healthy and feelin and lookin good! it's set a good ex. for the kids, they shouldn't mind letting you have your time if it's set in the schedule on a weekly basis! you can do it!!! good luck
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